Thursday, February 12, 2004

Musings

*huge sigh of relief* Just drove back home safely. *lol* Luckily nothing serious happened *lol* Besides the fact that I was damn nervous, and thought I got lost a few times when actually i didn't ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;

Watashi no imoto (i.e. my beloved lovestruck sister) is over the moon, so to speak. She just returned from some BLUE autograph signing session at HMV, and from the inane babble, I discerned a few words - CUTE! I got KISSED and HUGGED!!! DUNCAN AND LEE!!!!!! *big sweatdrop* Lucky kid though. At least her idols come to singapore. *sigh* When I was her age, I just HAD to like those people who had absolutely no reason to come to SG T__T

On other things. I dunno. Today was a rather taxing day emotionally ^^;; Yes, Rie is being introspective. Very rare, this mood.

Went for archery training today, and one of my friends was rather disturbed as his friend's father just passed away. Can't blame him though. I was majorly disturbed when a close friend of mine lost her father to a sudden death. It was one of those things that suddenly woke me up. Just like that. i suddenly realised that the times I've enjoyed until now could suddenly end. It's like when you are young, you always believe that your youth, your parents, everything around you will stay llike that forever. Then 'Poof', this turns up, and you realise that no, nothing lasts forever. Life is transient. And it's scary, to think that things will leave eventually. And it's not knowing when that makes it even worse. Which is why we have to treasure the times we have I guess, so that there'll be no regrets when someone has to leave.. I remember that day,when I went for the wake. My friend was very calm, normal even, trying so hard remain normal. And I really admired her for that. It's hard, moving on when something like this happens to you. But she did it. And I'll always admire her for that. I'm not so strong though. I think, put in the same position, I'd be hysterical and non-functional for at least a month...*sigh*

And today, I got asked the question, 'Why then, this life?' And I remembered Sam in LOTR saying this. And therein, I think, lies the answer. (from The Seat Of Kings):

Frodo: I can't do this, Sam.
Sam: I know. It's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr. Frodo. The ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end. Because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it was when so much bad had happened.

[At Helm's Deep, Aragorn and Eowyn embrace as Rohan, with the help of the Rohirrim, is victorious.]
Sam: But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come. And when the sun shines it will shine out the clearer.

[The sun shines on Isengard, as Merry, Pippin, and the Ents celebrate victory.]
Sam: Those were the stories that stayed with you. That meant something. Even if you were too small to understand why. But I think, Mr. Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances of turning back only they didn't. They kept going. Because they were holding on to something.
Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?
Sam: [He helps Frodo up and says:]
That there's some good in this world, Mr. Frodo. And it's worth fighting for.

To what extent should you start telling someone straight off if that person repeats a mistake over and over again without realising it? I mean, being friends, you have a sort of duty towards tellign that person so that he/she can improve, but when exactly should you start interfering? *sigh* I dunno. Was rather surprised with myself actually, when I got _________ pissed. *sigh* I didn't think my patience would run dry so quickly. I guess I was wrong ^^;;;; But then, I was rather proud of myself. I didn't totally lose control. Which was good. ^^;;;;;;;;;;; Hopefully no misunderstandings arose...But still...*sigh* whattodowhattodo....*sighs*

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